"In
the Face of Death" full article
New York Times Magazine, July 6, 2003 |
 |
"The
Trenchcoat Robbers" full article
New Yorker, July 8, 2002 |
 |
"Where
is Everyone Going?" full article
Chicago Tribune Magazine, March 10, 2002 |
 |
"I Got
the Sheriff" Download
PDF
New Yorker, Sept. 25, 2000 |
 |
"Through
the Clouds" full article
Washington Post Mag., June 12, 2000 |
 |
"The
Execution of Youth" Download
PDF
New Yorker, Jan. 17, 2000 |
 |
"The
Unprotected" Download
PDF
New Yorker, Feb. 8, 1999 |
 |
"The
High School at the End of the Road" full article
New York Times Magazine, July 5, 1998 |
 |
"James
Cox " full article
Rolling Stone, June 8, 1998 |
 |
"Colorblind"
full article
New York Times Magazine, January 11, 1998 |
 |
"Getting
to Know One Another, Again and Again" full
article
New York Times Magazine, March 9, 1997 |
 |
| |
| |
| |
|
|
Through
the Clouds
He knew landing in this remote corner of Lake Superior could
be unpredictable -- but no more so than his 4 1/2- year-old daughter
The Washington Post,
March 12, 2000
By Alex Kotlowitz.
Copyright The Washington Post Company Mar 12, 2000
Madeleine, my 4 1/2-year-old daughter, pressed her
face against the seaplane's window, peering at the temperamental
waters of Lake Superior below. Though the morning sky was a satiny,
pale blue, the sea boiled, whitecaps exploding like firecrackers.
As we approached our destination, Isle Royale, a reef of clouds
hugged the island tightly, hiding it from view. Mattie was mesmerized.
The rest of us were unnerved. I sat with my back to the pilot,
facing the rear of the plane. Across from me, our knees touching,
sat a middle-aged woman from North Carolina who leaned over and,
in a tone meant to reassure, shouted above the din of the single
prop, "My brother's an amateur pilot." Her brother,
a bearded social worker from Detroit, sat up front in the copilot's
seat.
For half an hour, we crisscrossed the island, searching for an
opening. At one point we descended through a small slit, emerging
just yards above a ridge topped with red oaks and white pines.
No water was in sight. With an abruptness that left my stomach
churning, we ascended back through the milky whiteness. Mattie
must have sensed my tension, as she jumped into my lap and clung
to my arms. Finally, we found a tear in the clouds, just wide
and long enough for us to land in Tobin Harbor, a narrow, five-mile-long
inlet. Exiting the plane, I asked the social worker-cum-copilot
if the landing had been as ticklish as it seemed. "It was
dicey," he replied. As I stood on the undulating dock helping
to unload our bags, Mattie stuck to me, her thin, taut arms now
circled about my right leg.
I'd been warned about this trip. Not about the flight. Or about
the remoteness of the island. But rather about traveling with
a 4 1/ 2-year-old. When I told my wife of my plans, she smiled
broadly. "Sounds wonderful," she said, though I think
what sounded wonderful was the idea of time home alone with our
son, Lucas. "How long are you going to be on the island?"
she asked. "Four days," I told her. She smiled again,
this time -- and I'm sure of this, though she denies it -- with
a glint of mischief in her misty green eyes. She later wrapped
eight presents for Mattie, two for each day, for those moments
when inevitably Mattie would lose interest in all things outdoors.
I'm proud to say that in our time on Isle Royale, I gave Mattie
just one of those gifts, and then only because she spotted it
bundled in one of my shirts.
Isle Royale is sui generis among U.S. national parks. At only
45 miles long and nine miles at its widest, it would be just another
ridge in Yellowstone, which is 15 times its size. Given its location
in the northwest corner of Lake Superior, it is the most remote
park in the lower 48 states. It has as many visitors over the
course of a season as the Grand Canyon has in two days, and is
the only park to close for the winter. It has no public telephones.
As Mattie would keep reminding me, usually over breakfast while
I anxiously contemplated the blank slate of a day ahead, "We're
far away." At those moments I detected in her eyes that same
flash of impishness that I'd seen in her mother's.
The island, which is part of Michigan, has at various points in
time been mined for copper, cut for lumber and used as a base
for commercial fishing, but its distance from the mainland --
56 miles from Michigan, 14 miles from Canada -- has, in the words
of one admiring writer, turned back each of these ventures one
by one. Now, it is a place of unusual solitude that reveals itself
to outsiders slowly and cautiously.
Its size can be deceiving. Visitors often think that a week here
will give them an opportunity to visit all its corners. Not a
chance. There are no vehicles here; the only travel is by foot
or by boat. Though principally one island, which is fondly called
"the Rock" by National Park Service employees, it really
is an archipelago; a collection of 450 or so smaller keys dot
the larger island's perimeter. They vary in size and use. One,
Gull Island, is a bald boulder no bigger than a basketball court,
and acts as an open-air pub for hundreds of lollygagging gulls
and cormorants. Another, Mott Island, stretches for a mile, and
houses 70 Park Service employees during the 61/2 months -- mid-April
through October -- the park is open.
Mattie and I arrived toward season's end, and stayed at the Park
Service-owned Rock Harbor Lodge, at Isle Royale's northeastern
tip. It's the only public accommodations on the island. I dropped
two packs onto one of the beds, and while I transferred our clothes
to dressers, Mattie tossed her small backpack onto the other mattress,
and also began to unpack. I stopped to watch. Two packs of Juicy
Fruit gum, a miniature pinball game, an assortment of old airplane
ticket stubs, my pass to our town's swimming pool, a pad of yellow
stick'ems, a wallet with an old license of my wife's, a pair of
wings given to her by a flight attendant. I could go on. What
kind of disaster was she preparing for?
That first day Mattie was so exhausted I carried her in a pack
on my back, but she was much too big for it, and her legs slid
out, swinging rhythmically like pendulums into the small of my
back. We walked the trail along Tobin Harbor, and Mattie, comforted
by the steady movement, soon fell asleep. About a mile into the
trek, I found a trail that crossed the width of the island, and
as I trudged up a rocky hill, I heard a crashing to my left, just
behind a fallen pine. A cow moose, its ears pinned back, examined
us. Mattie was now awake, her legs wrapped tightly around my belly.
The moose bounded, faster than I thought an animal of such bulk
could move, and 30 feet farther into the woods stopped, weighing
its options. I looked around for a calf, as I knew enough not
to get between a mother moose and its child, but saw nothing.
So I hiked on, Mattie, like a baby koala, now embracing my clammy
forehead. She'd been startled, and whenever I mentioned to people
back at the lodge that we'd seen a moose, Mattie would bring her
fists up to her chest and pretend to shiver, telling them it was
"scary."
Many things define my daughter, but it's her thespian assortment
of hand motions, body twists and facial expressions that I most
admire. They compensate for her limited language, a result of
a hearing loss that has been classified as moderate to severe,
though the truth of it is that until she gets older and is better
able to communicate, we won't know for certain what she can and
can't detect. We accompany our conversations with hand signals
-- a system called cueing -- which cue Mattie to the vowels and
consonants of our speech. When she wears her hearing aids, she
can hear much -- I can, for instance, call for her from behind
and she'll respond -- but again it's hard to know what the world
sounds like to her. Can she distinguish, for instance, between
the plaintive cry of a loon and the whiny cackle of a gull? Can
she hear the difference between falling rain and Lake Superior's
surf?
On our first night at the lodge's restaurant, she got up from
the table to flirt with a waiter. She stood by the kitchen door,
and though the manager urged her to move, she didn't hear him.
She had earlier removed her aids because of the restaurant's clatter.
Before I could get her attention, another waiter carrying a trayload
of dinners pushed open the door. Mattie acted as a human doorjamb,
and the food and dishes went crashing to the floor. She stood
in place momentarily inert, nervously running her hands through
her short black hair, waiting for the oncoming scolding. The manager
approached, and leaned down. Mattie bowed her head, looking at
me out of the corner of her eye. He handed her a set of postcards,
all of wolves, which Mattie clutched to her chest and then ran
over to show me. She later added them to the collection in her
backpack.
Falling dishes aside, Isle Royale is a place of subtle sounds
and of ethereal sights. Mattie, in her own way, consumed it all.
Did she hear that moose pound through the brush? Something awoke
her -- and once awakened her other senses took over. Could she
hear Lake Superior's constant assault on the island? She certainly
sensed the lake's power.
Lake Superior, the world's largest body of fresh water, is, like
my daughter, moody, its disposition unpredictable, so much so
that canoeists and kayakers at Isle Royale are warned to allow
for extra days. During storms, the lake can surge and crash with
such ferocity that big freighters will shake and bend from its
fury. Waves can reach 30 feet. But even in its milder moments,
the lake can be formidable. I'd planned to take Mattie camping
on Caribou Island, a blissfully small, out-of-the way spot where
I'd spent a couple of nights 10 years ago while canoeing the island,
but gentle winds blowing in from the south produced a pinball-like
assortment of swells and chop. Even Mattie, who loves the water,
acquiesced.
The lake in all its guises has become Isle Royale's protector,
so insulating the island from outside forces that it's viewed
by biologists as a perfect laboratory to study the relationship
between prey and predator. The moose arrived here in the early
1900s, apparently having swum the 14 miles from Canada. Their
predators, the wolves, came later, walking across the ice during
an unusually cold winter. Both animal populations have fluctuated
dramatically. The number of wolves peaked in 1980 at 50 and has
since been reduced by half, and they are rarely seen by anyone
but the researchers here in the desolate winters. Until recently,
scientists blamed inbreeding for the decline, but biologist Rolf
Peterson, who has spent the past 30 years studying this ecosystem,
now believes a mutant dog virus is responsible. The moose numbers
have dropped off in recent years -- mostly because of starvation
-- and now stand at 750. Still, chances are pretty good you'll
stumble across one; they're not particularly skittish around human
intruders.
On our second day, we began a four-mile round-trip hike to the
island's northernmost tip, but half a mile into our walk, Mattie
refused to go any further. "I can't walk," she pleaded,
throwing her hands in the air and sighing in exhaustion. When
I balked at carrying her (I had left the backpack at the lodge),
she fell to the ground, cross-legged, looking every bit the ecoterrorist.
"I can't either," I told her, throwing my arms up, too,
and sighing. But she wouldn't budge, so I gave in, scooping her
up in my arms to return to the lodge.
Along the way, I stopped for an early lunch, thinking a little
food might energize her. As we sat side by side on a sloping boulder,
admiring Gull Island in the distance, I opened my knapsack to
get our sandwiches, and a small alarm clock tumbled out, somersaulting
into Lake Superior. I considered going in after it, and in that
brief moment, my attention focused on the floating plastic, I
saw something else go "plop" just inches from the timepiece.
I turned around and realized that Mattie, upset at our loss, had
taken one of her $800 hearing aids and tossed it into the water.
It didn't float.
I figure that even with all the shipwrecks along this island --
and there have been quite a few -- this was probably the most
valuable object per square inch Lake Superior had ever devoured.
Mattie, chagrined, suggested she go into the lake after it. When
I churlishly said, "Okay, go," she looked at me, then
at the lake curling seductively at her feet.
I pulled her into my arms, kissed her cheek and with great fanfare
anointed this place "Mattie's Cove," though with only
one aid I'm not sure how much she understood. Privately I wondered
how I'd explain this to my wife.
The next day, I hoisted Mattie in the backpack (I learn relatively
quickly) and in a light rain trekked to Scoville Point, an outcropping
of rock, where we sat and watched Lake Superior hurl itself against
the boulders below, as if it were trying to punish the island
for some past misdeed. Mattie scurried along the sloping granite,
careful not to get too near the surf, and befriended a young couple
from Rochester, Minn., who sat holding hands and munching on crackers,
which they graciously shared with her. On our hike back, we passed
Mattie's Cove, and Mattie, who never forgets a place, pointed
to the bare boulder, stroked my hair, and in a voice so soft the
words hovered like a mist, said, "Sorry, Daddy. Sorry."
Since the steady winds kept me from taking Mattie out in a boat,
we spent our evenings on the seaplane dock in Tobin Harbor fishing
for coasters, a rare species of brook trout found nowhere else
in the United States. I might not have been so persistent except
that on our first day I'd spotted one swimming just a few feet
below the surface. The two of us would remove our boots, and dangle
our bare feet in the surprisingly temperate waters, as I cast
spoons and spinners, whatever colorful lure Mattie chose. That
was her job. I had no luck whatsoever, and Mattie didn't hesitate
to point that out. Each time I suggested we go fishing, she would
grin, raise her open palms to the sky, shrug her narrow shoulders,
and remind me, "No fish." Nonetheless, she enthusiastically
followed. We usually had the dock to ourselves, and one time,
as she sat on my lap, soaking her feet, a fox pranced nearby,
playfully tossing its head as if inviting us to join it.
It was the end of the season, so there weren't many visitors on
the island, though each day a band of kayakers or hikers would
arrive at the lodge's coffee shop unshaven and odorous. They usually
ate in silence. Even entreaties from Mattie were unsuccessful.
As anyone who spends time in the back country knows, your natural
inclination upon returning is not to engage in conversation with
strangers, but rather to keep to yourself, feeling self-satisfied,
if not somewhat smug. The exception to this were the boaters who
motored in from Minnesota or Michigan, usually beer-bellied, flannel-shirted
men who'd often been drinking. They craved company. One evening,
Mattie and I watched as a small cruiser named the Sea Saw pulled
away from the lodge, one of its passengers, young and long-haired,
drunk and loud, posing as a hood ornament. He laughed and carried
on for the handful of us on shore. The next day, in five-foot
swells, the Sea Saw ran aground on one of the outer islands, damaging
its propellers. Park Service rangers towed it in. The human ornament,
now sober, was somewhat frantic at the realization it would be
a few days, maybe a week, before he could get the boat repaired
and back home.
On our last day, Mattie and I took two trips. The first was to
Raspberry Island, which, because it's without moose, has flora
quite different from the main island's. Mattie was uninterested
in the island's bog and carnivorous plants, and, moreover, she
seemed to resent sharing this journey with a family of four. In
the afternoon, we headed -- by ourselves -- to Lookout Louise,
which I'd been told boasted one of the island's best views. We
hired Jim Luke, a young, baby-faced merchant seaman who'd taken
the summer off to work on Isle Royale, piloting one of the lodge's
two small cruisers. The lake that afternoon had whipped itself
into six-foot swells, and Jim initially balked at taking us. But
after we'd dawdled a couple of hours, the winds subsided some.
Mattie sat next to Jim, who, water cowboy that he was, would rev
the engine, sending the boat flying off the waves, the hull quaking
with each landing. It brought squeals of delight from my daughter,
and prayers from her father that he wouldn't spill his lunch.
Thankfully, it was a short jaunt to the trail head where Jim dropped
us. I loaded Mattie into the backpack and began the mile ascent
through a canopy of pines and oaks. Halfway up, we came across
a collection of moose bones, the meat picked clean. I later learned
from Peterson, who claims to know of every moose death on the
island, that these were the remains of a 10-month-old calf that
most likely died from blood loss due to a tick infestation.
Lookout Louise did indeed offer a spectacular panorama of the
island's western perimeter, a series of fjords and inlets protected
from the lake by daunting cliffs. We watched from above as sea
gulls and hawks circled the water. We admired the few boats on
the horizon. We sat in each other's arms, savoring the stillness.
And we took lots of pictures, most of which, somewhat inexplicably,
are of either Mattie or me munching on ham sandwiches.
At breakfast the next morning, our last, it became apparent that
Mattie was ready to head home. An older woman who had befriended
her gave her a small stuffed moose. Mattie thanked her and then
pointed to the two empty chairs at our table. "Mommy. Lucas,"
she said by way of explaining that she missed them.
We waited for the seaplane by the pier, our fishing spot now shared
with four retired auto workers from Flint who would be flying
to the mainland with us. The men, who sat in silence, had just
hiked the length of the island, and were not quite ready for company,
but Mattie persisted. She skipped about, and finally won them
over when she went to each of them to rub her small hands along
their 10-day- old stubble. They laughed and, in kind, ran their
rough, factory- worn hands along Mattie's tender cheeks. One asked
about her stay. She pointed to the end of the dock. With her shoulders
pulled in to her cheeks, her open palms lifted toward the heavens
and -- I'm sure of this -- a waggish grin aimed directly at me,
she said, "No fish."
Alex Kotlowitz is the author of The Other Side of the River
and There Are No Children Here.
How To
To get there: You can leave by ferry from Grand Portage, Minn.,
or -- as most people do -- from either Houghton or Copper Harbor,
Mich. It's a three- to six-hour trip, depending on where you leave
from, and you can bring canoes or kayaks. Or you can get there
by seaplane from Houghton (reservations required; 906-482-8850).
To stay: Most visitors camp, at designated sites (some campsites
have three-sided wooden shelters). The alternative is the Rock
Harbor Lodge, open from late May to shortly after Labor Day (906-337-4993
in season; 270-773- 2191 in the off-season). More information:
The phone number for the park itself is 906-482-0984. Groceries
(just the basics) and fishing gear are available at the Marina
Store on the island. -- A.K.
Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction
or distribution is prohibited without permission.
top of page
|
|